Some one said "You could only exceed if you do what you love". Well said, but what do i really want to do?
On my initial school days, during the first five or six years, i wanted to become an ambitious police officer. Guy who beats off criminals, who mostly are my school mates who make quarrels with me and my friends. (hey, still they are criminals as they are against my team... :-)). Then it turned out to those great super heroes. You may think a police officer and a super hero are not much of a difference to a child, tell you, super heroes are really good at enhancing your child's imagination. I can say i literally warded off my boring class hours dreaming how i could save those innocent (mostly beautiful girls) people and earn their love and respect. Not surprisingly the attention gradually shifted towards Astronauts as my super heroes usually come from space ( a realistic move you may wonder). But to make for the reality factor i was fantasizing a space warrior within me, guy who fights off those dangerous people hungry aliens.
I still remember of a dream where i would jump off my school balcony right in time to be caught by my mind controlled Fly Wheeler (like a water scooter but it flies, exactly like our heroes jumping off the balconies on to their running horses). Then i would team up with my fellow warriors ( of course with some spectacular stunts for the onlooking crowd to wonder) to race up to the alien ship to attack it.
Moving on i somehow wanted to become an artist. I have no idea how i got there but i tried some pencil sketches and most of them got appreciations. I think its the weirdest idea that came over to me and it still lingers somewhere in my mind.
Last, i stepped into the IT industry with a dream of something big, but whats that big thing's still a mystery. I think knowing that would make no sense before achieving it. Actually the virtual world in the IT was so promising to fulfill my big dreams. Imagine a world with no bounds and limits? Even its impossible to find the word impossible printed in Oxford Dictionary but the word impossible is nothing in IT's virtuality.
Though i was successful in writing codes, my fantasy of creating and doing that big thing never turned face towards me. And it seems unlikely to happen in those jungles of corporate world.
At last i stepped out of the virtual world after 3 years with another goal of pursuing a premier MBA. Fortunately my CAT attempt failed ( though with a mediocre score, but i don't want to go into a B grade B school) and i am waiting for my XAT score (Pray this would get me somewhere...). Now its time for my preparation for GMAT and to look after my dad's business in the mean time, i am still confused what am i doing or even if i belong here?
Looking back, my mind races over one major question, "Should we do what we love?" or "Should we love what we do?" and settle for the sake of marriage and start producing children ( i dont think we are really in a stage to give importance to human reproduction these days, as the survival of human race is not in jeopardy but its the major problem the earth is facing these days). My parents have already started persuading me for the ultimate goal of our life (yeah, the ritual called marriage) but i dont even have any plan after GMAT. Though the business is good and flourishing I still feel that hunger in me.
Should i settle and learn to love what i do or should i pursue my invisible goal ? Let me wait for time to take me somewhere for i am too tired to make a decision. Whatever i still believe i would land somewhere in a no man's land and build my dream empire over there.
On my initial school days, during the first five or six years, i wanted to become an ambitious police officer. Guy who beats off criminals, who mostly are my school mates who make quarrels with me and my friends. (hey, still they are criminals as they are against my team... :-)). Then it turned out to those great super heroes. You may think a police officer and a super hero are not much of a difference to a child, tell you, super heroes are really good at enhancing your child's imagination. I can say i literally warded off my boring class hours dreaming how i could save those innocent (mostly beautiful girls) people and earn their love and respect. Not surprisingly the attention gradually shifted towards Astronauts as my super heroes usually come from space ( a realistic move you may wonder). But to make for the reality factor i was fantasizing a space warrior within me, guy who fights off those dangerous people hungry aliens.
I still remember of a dream where i would jump off my school balcony right in time to be caught by my mind controlled Fly Wheeler (like a water scooter but it flies, exactly like our heroes jumping off the balconies on to their running horses). Then i would team up with my fellow warriors ( of course with some spectacular stunts for the onlooking crowd to wonder) to race up to the alien ship to attack it.
Moving on i somehow wanted to become an artist. I have no idea how i got there but i tried some pencil sketches and most of them got appreciations. I think its the weirdest idea that came over to me and it still lingers somewhere in my mind.
Last, i stepped into the IT industry with a dream of something big, but whats that big thing's still a mystery. I think knowing that would make no sense before achieving it. Actually the virtual world in the IT was so promising to fulfill my big dreams. Imagine a world with no bounds and limits? Even its impossible to find the word impossible printed in Oxford Dictionary but the word impossible is nothing in IT's virtuality.
Though i was successful in writing codes, my fantasy of creating and doing that big thing never turned face towards me. And it seems unlikely to happen in those jungles of corporate world.
At last i stepped out of the virtual world after 3 years with another goal of pursuing a premier MBA. Fortunately my CAT attempt failed ( though with a mediocre score, but i don't want to go into a B grade B school) and i am waiting for my XAT score (Pray this would get me somewhere...). Now its time for my preparation for GMAT and to look after my dad's business in the mean time, i am still confused what am i doing or even if i belong here?
Looking back, my mind races over one major question, "Should we do what we love?" or "Should we love what we do?" and settle for the sake of marriage and start producing children ( i dont think we are really in a stage to give importance to human reproduction these days, as the survival of human race is not in jeopardy but its the major problem the earth is facing these days). My parents have already started persuading me for the ultimate goal of our life (yeah, the ritual called marriage) but i dont even have any plan after GMAT. Though the business is good and flourishing I still feel that hunger in me.
Should i settle and learn to love what i do or should i pursue my invisible goal ? Let me wait for time to take me somewhere for i am too tired to make a decision. Whatever i still believe i would land somewhere in a no man's land and build my dream empire over there.
Welcome to the club Guna. There are hell lot of people out there who don't know what they really like or what they want to do with their life and I am one of them.
ReplyDeleteSomeone said 'Choose a job you love, and you never have to work a day in your life'. But finding a job that we love is the hardest part.
Hope we don't take this regret to the grave and find a job which we love asap.